hiswaynotmine

A young Christian woman trying to figure out the world!

Archive for the month “November, 2011”

In the world not of it

I think one of the hardest things to do as Christians is to be in the world not of it.  Our culture is so ingrained in us that most of us don’t flinch when we see mostly naked people, or hear someone cursing.  It has definitely been a struggle for me.  I was raised with television and movies, and my teenage years involved surfing the web.  Now little kids are on the internet too.  We’re so exposed to different cultures, different political views, and different religions and education about those things is good but I feel like I’m also deafening myself to God’s will for my life.  I feel like my head is so full of things of this world that I can’t hear God.  I don’t mean that to sound like education is bad.  I think education is great I think too many people lack education on things outside of their specific communities.  I’m talking about the things in life that don’t have any educational value that takes up so much of my time.  We recently got rid of cable in my house so I don’t watch too much television anymore, but now I find that I can waste mindless hours on the internet playing stupid games or on facebook.  I feel like God could very well be trying to do something in my life but because I have to get on facebook and see what others are up to I don’t leave Him the opportunity do something.  I’m on the internet right now but this doesn’t count as mindless as I’m in deep thought writing 🙂  In my life lust has been a problem.  You don’t hear too many women coming out and saying that but it has.  The fact that I’m not bothered by shows where unmarried couples  are living together, or where the people walk around half naked is a clear sign that it is a problem.  In the last few months I have really started to question what I watch on tv, look at on the internet, and listen to for music and I am finding that I have exposed myself to a lot of things that I shouldn’t have.  It makes me question if I wouldn’t have spent so many years filing my mind with mindless junk what I could have filled my mind with?

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1 year anniversary

Saturday was the one year anniversary of my mother’s death.  She died way too young (53 years old) of a brain tumor.  Leaving behind 2 sisters, 1 nephew, a broken hearted husband of 30 years, and 7 kids (although the youngest was 17 at the time so not so little kids).  In the year since her death are family has been stressed to the breaking with issues ranging from careers to mental and physical health of some of my siblings.  However I want to start a tradition on this anniversary to not focus on the loss of her, but on her life and her impact on my life, and the other blessings God has given me.  Here is a list of those blessings: My family I have a big family and although at times it’s hard to get along with people they have all been a blessing to me to help and teach me in this life.  My church most my life I went to a church that left me spiritually dead and 5 months before my mom passed I was introduced and started attending a church drew me close to the Holy Spirit and it has only been with God that I’ve been able to get through this year.  My friends, you truly learn who your friends are when they’re faced with a difficult situation, like a friend who’s mother has died.  They mean more to me then they will ever know! Those are the big things on my list but I am also thankful and blessed by where I live, the fact that we have never been without any of the necessities in life and have always had extra.  The thing I am most thankful for though is that God sent His son to die for my sins and that someday I will see my mom again.  I really don’t know how nonbelievers get through death because one of the most comforting things to me is that I will see her again one day in heaven.  It’s comforting in a way. I still miss her but I know that I only said see you later and not goodbye to her.  God is truly good!

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